Eureka! at the Farmer’s Market

So let me tell you how my week went. First, I bought a bike. I’m still super excited about it, but I haven’t really had many chances to ride it yet. Except for today. And the weather was gorgeous. But I didn’t ride. I have been pretty tired today, probably from all of the walking we did when we went to the Biltmore Estate for our vacation trip. It was pretty fun. That house is amazing! Oh, did I say house? I meant mansion! I couldn’t even imagine all of the work it would take to keep up that place if you were living in it.

So since we were out of town, my eating was a little shaky. Usually I stress and stress about it, but this time I didn’t. I have learned by now that I can usually find something to eat almost anywhere that won’t have grains in it – my one big rival. And while I am sensitive to sugar, I can tolerate it better than grains.

I did pretty good. I think the high amount of sugar I ate is probably a contributing factor to why I am so tired today, but in a few days that will be gone. I am planning on getting out and riding tomorrow, since it is my last vacation day, and enjoying some of this beautiful weather. Watch – now that I’ve said that, it will be hot and rainy tomorrow and I won’t be able to go anywhere on my bike. Yes, I know that bikes still work in the rain. I haven’t gotten that gung-ho about it yet.

I made my weekly trip to the farmer’s market today to get some vegetables and eggs. I have been searching for convenient place to get pasture eggs for a while now. What I mean by pasture eggs is that the owners let the chickens run around outside and eat bugs and worms and other things that are healthy for them, rather than keeping them in a building and feeding them grain all day. Now that we have been eating Paleo for some time, we are getting more concerned about the quality of the food that we are eating. I do a lot of shopping at the farmer’s market, and I can’t wait until more vegetables are in season. Right now strawberries are in season, and I have really been enjoying them with a spoonful of cashew butter.

My fiance (Clint) and I watched the documentary Food, Inc. about a month ago, and it was very eye opening. It talked about how different animals are treated when they are raised for food by corporations like Tyson. It also discussed how there really are only a handful of companies that control the vast amounts of brands that we have available to us in the store, and how they are shifting some of their products in order to sell them in the middle of the organic and all-natural food craze that we are finding ourselves in the middle of them. I personally don’t trust them to create anything all natural. Even if something says “all natural” on the label I still read the ingredients, and nine times out of ten there will be something in that item that doesn’t pass my strict standards. After watching the documentary I wasn’t happy with organic eggs or cage-free eggs, because when you think about it, those words could mean anything. The chickens that we saw in the documentary weren’t in cages, but they rarely – if ever – saw sunlight and were so crowded in the buildings that they were in that they couldn’t possibly get any exercise. They were fed grain from who knows where, most of the time treated with antibiotics to keep the chickens from getting sick in their cramped conditions. I know one thing – I don’t want my eggs to be from chickens that are raised like that.

So I was super-excited when I found this woman at the farmer’s market selling pasture-raised eggs, and she has pasture-raised beef and chicken too! And she’s local! Clint and I are very passionate about supporting local businesses, so I am sure that we are going to be doing more business with this woman in the future.

I joined a Paleo-themed group on Facebook this week. The people in this group like to post pictures of what they are eating. I don’t think I could make it posting pictures for this group. Each plate that I see has a little portion of meat, a little portion of vegetables, and a little portion of some sort of fat. I am looking at these pictures thinking “there is no way that I could survive eating that little amount of food!” Maybe that is why I haven’t lost any more weight than I have. I don’t know. I do know that when I took my health class for school we had to track our calories for a week and my calories were spot-on every day without me even trying or tweaking anything. But I look at those pictures and the small amounts of food, and then I look at what I am eating every day and I think, “Am I doing something wrong?” Apparently no one in the Paleo community eats quite as much food as I do. Or at least, the ones on that particular page don’t. And when I make an honest effort to get in the exercise that I should, I get hungrier, which means that I eat even more! I have thought about trying to cut the amount of protein that I am eating down and adding more fat and vegetables, because I am pretty sure that I am eating too much meat. But those pictures make me seriously wonder if I am missing something or if I am doing something wrong.

I want to get back into my yoga more seriously, too. I cut way back when school got hectic, so I haven’t really made any progress. I am looking forward to giving that more of my time this week. I’ll let you know how it goes! Right now I need to go check on the pulled pork that I put in the crock pot this morning!

Letting Go of the Pity Party

So I was thinking about my last post – I have been thinking about it since I wrote it – and it hit me all of the sudden: “Geez! You are being so WHINY!” I mean, I have been doing this diet since September, fully planning on making it a permanent part of my life. I was going to the gym regularly – I’m not sure why I stopped. I’ve lost almost forty pounds and have had a level of commitment that I’m not sure I’ve ever had before… and all I can do is whine about my upcoming vacation?!

Really, after I thought about it, I was really mad at myself. I mean, how can I talk like that after everything I have done to be successful? Am I really going to let a weekend trip bend me out of shape that much? The answer, of course, is

NO

So today I decided to stop the pity party. That really was what it was; I haven’t lost any weight in a couple of months and I haven’t really taken the time to figure out why. I have probably done what many others have done throughout the winter and let some things slide that I normally wouldn’t have. I think that my focus needs to change from pity-party central to trying to clean up my diet. I have thought about doing a Whole 30, but I think I can clean up my act pretty well without that. I went shopping today after browsing Chowstalker.com, so I have food for the week.

I also found Everyday Paleo  Lifestyle and Fitness. I have a feeling that this site is going to be my saving grace. I think that the whole Crossfit debacle was a total downer for me (probably part of my mental problem), but this site lists workouts that seem very similar to Crossfit workouts, but they have a beginner’s level! Meaning that I can work my way up the the intense Crossfit stuff. They even have tests for you to do in the beginner level so that you can tell whether or not you are ready to go on the the next level. I am very excited about starting that this week, as well as cleaning up my eating.

So tonight I made Stuffed Peppers and they are awesome (I say they are awesome because I am eating them right now). Tomorrow I am going to be working on 5-Spice Slow-Cooker Pork Ribs (although I went to EarthFare with the express purpose of buying some coconut aminos, but walked out of the store with a lot of other stuff – and no coconut aminos). My biggest problem is finding stuff to munch on, since I seem to be hungry a lot lately, but I will figure that out, too. I am going to clean it up and pay attention to my body, and hopefully soon I will have a very positive update on weight loss or a pant size lost or something like that! At the very least I can talk about how much better I feel.

My Rough Week

Well, as I started typing this post, I wasn’t sure what the title should be. But then I realized that all I am going to type about is how much this past week sucked. For starters, the Crossfit gym that I was going to changed their schedule starting at the beginning of the week, and the new schedule made it impossible for me to attend regular classes. So I am stuck going back to my old gym. Don’t worry, though – I am still working on my squats because I feel that it is important to be able to do those right. I keep thinking about it and I think that my doing them wrong has nothing to do with how long I have been sitting on my butt. I really think that I have been doing them wrong my entire life.

So I was bummed about the Crossfit thing. Still am. Any time that my fiance and I look into any type of activity like that, it never works with my schedule. I guess that means that I have a really crappy schedule. And it also means that it is back to my old gym for me. My workout partner said that she’ll finally be able to go with me. I may throw some burpees in for good measure.

I had mentioned that I started feeling sick after my very first Crossfit workout, and I fought it all last week, but by this past Thursday I felt like I was about to die. I went to the doctor and found out that I had a sinus infection. I’ve got antibiotics now and this morning I was actually able to smell stuff for the first time in over a week. I’m not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing, but I do know that the meatloaf that I made for dinner sure smelled good.

I was going to post about my wild weekend last weekend, but the week was so rough that I never did. I spent almost the entire day last Sunday shopping – most of it was for groceries. It really was entirely unintentional because I had a plan and knew what I needed, but there were two items that the stores close to me just didn’t have. So rather than change my plan, I drove all the way across town to another store to get my stuff. Remember, I was sick. I get really stubborn and bitchy when I’m sick, so no one was even suggesting that we change the plan, lest they get their heads bitten off. I did get everything that I needed, though, and I made my pork chili again, and some chicken soup that I thought was going to be awesome but turned out kind of tasteless. Either that or it was the fact that I couldn’t taste anything since I was all stopped up. Not a good week for experimenting with new recipes, anyway.

It is incredibly hard to stay Paleo when I am sick. I did it, but I craved all kinds of stuff. If you’re like me, all you want when you are sick is some kind of comfort food, and by comfort food I mean CARBS. You know, the stuff that will increase the level of endorphins in your body so that you will feel happy and warm and loved and can forget for a moment that your head is about to explode from all of the crap in your sinuses. Whenever I did low carb diets before, I always fell off the wagon when I got sick. Now I see why, because this diet has been the easiest change of my life, but I still craved all kinds of stuff that I couldn’t have when I got sick. It is probably a good thing that I haven’t gotten sick very much since I started doing Paleo, and it is also probably a good thing that I’m not going to be doing Crossfit, since I think that had a lot to do with why I got sick in the first place. I hate that. I hate not being able to do the cool, intense workout stuff. But whatever.

I’ll be back at Crossfit. You just wait and see.

On a more positive note, I lost a couple more pounds, bringing me to a total of 40 pounds lost. I am very happy about that!

 

Where To Go From Here

So I feel like I am at a crossroads when it comes to my fitness. Not my diet – that is still going well. As a matter of fact I just took a few days off for my birthday and I did a lot of cooking. I now have beef stew, pork chili, and meatloaf sitting in my refrigerator, waiting to be used for my lunches. I even made some mashed cauliflower tonight to go along with the meatloaf and it was very good.

No, I’m talking about my workouts, which have become non-existent the past few weeks. Either I am just totally losing my drive to go to the gym, or I’m bored with it. I’m not sure which is the case right now, but I’m trying to look into other options as far as workouts go. I’m thinking about Crossfit, although it makes me kind of nervous. I have heard of a lot of people getting hurt doing Crossfit, but I know that a lot of Paleo folks swear by it. And…that’s all I’m really thinking about because I’m not sure what else is out there that I would be interested in, either.

See, the last time I went to the gym it was packed. Ridiculously packed. I would be waiting or fighting over a machine packed. And I have been scared to go ever since, because one of the things that I love about my workout is that it doesn’t take me forever to do it. Waiting for a machine would cost me time and frustrate me to no end. As a matter of fact, I left last time without finishing my workout because I didn’t want to wait on the leg press machine.

I know that it won’t be like that forever, but the thought of trying something new excites me. I’m not sure where to go with my fitness goals next, but I do know that I need to do something. I was enjoying the feeling that working out gave me, and the body that I was gaining from it.

Back to Basics

Have I mentioned how much I LOVE the farmer’s market? I go every week now and get fresh vegetables that are in season, fresh pork rinds to eat with my guacamole, and sometimes fresh meat.

My fiancé and I started getting fresh breakfast sausage at a booth that has fresh free-range eggs and sausage. “Okay,” I thought. “I’ll just try it.” I had noted that there was brown sugar listed in the ingredients, so I knew that the sausage needed to be a treat and not an every day thing. But it was so good – and it has become an every day thing for about three weeks now.

So the last couple of days has seen me become frustrated that the scale has not moved, nor has it felt like I’ve lost any inches. My losses have been fairly constant from the beginning, which to me means that I’m eating something I’m not supposed to be. And the only thing I’ve change, right around the time that the scale stopped moving was the sausage.

So I’m in mourning now for my breakfast sausage, but curious to see what happens since I’m going to cut it out of my diet. I’ll keep you posted.

What Does It Take?

I’m sitting up at five o’ clock in the morning, beating myself up, because I just had a dream about going to buy some pants for work, and they didn’t have my size. The problem with this is, it happened to me in real life.

I haven’t stuck with my goals. I haven’t done exercise probably since my last post on here. I haven’t stuck with my weight watchers since I got sick whenever that was – February I believe. It has been almost exactly four months since I made my weight loss goal, and I haven’t been motivated enough to work through all the crap to reach that goal. So what is it going to take for me? What do I have to do to get my head straight to do it? I feel like crap all the time. I know that I need to do it, not only for myself, but for my boyfriend, to motivate him to get off his ass and exercise so that he can better control his diabetes. But maybe that’s my problem. Maybe I’m focusing on him too much. In the end, I’m not doing this for him. I’m doing it for me. And screw the crap about the picture (wow, that caused a stink) cause I want to look like that again. I want to be able to get those clothes out of the shed and wear them! I want to stop feeling like a fat tub of lard who can’t even walk or run or anything. I am so sick of this and sick of my lack of motivation. Sick of my laziness. I need to do something. I need to motivate myself. I need the stick-to-it-ness that made me lose the weight before. I had great willpower then. I am calling on THAT person, the one that I know is inside me, to stick it out and sweat it out and get this done. Because I know that I can. It is ridiculous that I have let so much stuff get in the way of my goal. But not this time. I am going to talk to the health nurse this week and try to re-evaluate what I am doing and where I am at. And I am going to try to implement any tools that I can to get this done. I have to get serious. I am tired of feeling and looking this way and doing nothing about it but feel sorry for myself.  I need that famous one-track mind of mine to get it done. And it will. I am re-starting and re-assessing. I am re-affirming and realizing. And I can make this a reality.

Frustrated?

Well, I’m almost done with my fourth week on weight watchers, and I’ve been exercising now for three. It has been going well, especially the exercising. I’m really enjoying that. My weight loss has actually slowed, but I keep reminding myself that is to be expected since I’m doing twenty minute workouts every day. I’m only losing about a pound, if that, a week. Still, I keep telling myself that it is a loss, and the exercise will help me see results actually faster than otherwise. I can actually tell that I’m getting stronger, which is a plus. I am doing intermediate workouts now, but I still have my beginner goal up so that if I run into an intermediate workout that is too hard for me, I can do the beginner one. I’ve added some moves to specifically target my waistline, and I need to add some moves to specifically target my butt. Last time I lost weight, I targeted my waistline but not my butt, and my butt never went anywhere. I would have been able to wear much smaller sizes if I had targeted that area. But things are going well, and I can tell I’m stronger, and I’m looking toward the final end result and trying not to get frustrated that I’m only losing about a pound a week. With the muscle I’m gaining from my workouts, I will be burning calories faster, but muscle weighs more than fat, so I’m trying to remember that. I will see the benefits in my better-fitting clothes before long, I’m sure.

Another video for inspiration:

Britney Spears’ Stronger

Since I’m getting stronger and everything…