Carb Addiction

So if ANYONE has been reading this blog, they know that I’ve been having my ups and downs with Weight Watchers. Last weekend my boyfriend and I went to the beach, and for some reason it inspired me to try to get back up on the wagon. So when we went grocery shopping I bought all of my usual weight-loss inspired products: high fiber granola bars, low fat cereal, low fat yogurt, and other things that I figured would make the journey to weight loss simple and easy.

Boy, did I think wrong. It seems like nothing about weight loss for me is easy. First of all, every time I start weight watchers on my own, I seem to get incredibly sick with a cold or something else within a few weeks to a month. I’m so tired in the afternoons and evenings that I can’t think straight and have no patience for anything – and I have to have patience at my job; I work in a daycare! So for a whole week I was tired and irritable and didn’t have much to do with my own kids. I headed for bed early every night. And I thought, “This is the kind of thing that has had my boyfriend telling me to see a doctor.” And then I remembered that the one time that I was on Weight Watchers and it worked for me, I HAD to have a nap every single afternoon. It worked out for me then, though, because I got off of work at two in the afternoon. Not so now.

I started doing some online research about what could possibly be making me so tired all the time. A lot of sites said that this tired feeling was normal – which I absolutely refuse to believe. I can believe being a little tired, maybe, but not this overwhelming, OMG I have GOT to have a nap RIGHT NOW kind of tired that I have been feeling for the past week.

Then I came across a site that said something about insulin resistance. Now this is something that I’m familiar with, being that my boyfriend is diabetic. And after I cataloged the enormous amount of carbs that I was eating every day from the time I got out of bed in the morning to the time I got back into bed (exhausted) in the evening, I realized that I was stuffing myself so full of carbs that the insulin in my system is probably not working any more.

Now I am starting a big experiment, and it will actually be the second time I am trying it. I am cutting carbs. Specifically, I am cutting anything that has wheat or other cereal grains, bread, pasta, and stuff like that. I actually haven’t had any of that for two days. And the way I am feeling now has prompted me to research carb withdrawals.

Let me be clear now, lest I be misunderstood: THIS experiment is more about health for me than weight loss. Anyone who has been tired all the time knows how much it SUCKS! I have plenty of books that have plenty of information about carbs and their affect on the body to reference, thanks to my boyfriend. I am trying to read them and gain as much information as I can from them, as well as looking for other sources online. And from what I have gathered from this information so far, this is probably going to be the healthiest decision that I have made since I decided to be more conscious about my health OR my weight. And since this is now about health more than about weight, I am going to change the focus of this blog to reflect that. I am going to use this blog to vent any frustrations, hopefully talk out any cravings I have, and keep up this amazing willpower that I have been exhibiting to myself the past couple of days (remembering how tired I am after I eat that crap doesn’t hurt – I was so tired Friday night after I ate pizza that I couldn’t keep my eyes open. I went to bed at 8:30).

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Good Day

My weigh in was today, and I lost…(drun roll)…5 pounds! It was less than I wanted but more than I expected, so I can’t complain too much. It was a loss, anyway. And it means that I’m doing something right. Now if I can keep it up. I’ve made a few goals for myself for this week:

1. Keep track of all of my food! I haven’t been writing anything down, points or anything, and I know that if I had, my loss would have been greater.
2. Drink my 64 oz. of water a day. I KNOW that I haven’t been drinking enough water. So I am going to try to make an effort to drink all of the water that I’m supposed to.

And speaking of water, I have limited myself to one diet soda a day, but I have been sitting here sipping on my diet Dr. Pepper for over an hour and…its making me thirsty! Can you believe that? So I went on a web search, and this is what I found. I’m going to try that trick with the nail. I may put a nail in some diet soda before I go to bed, just to see what it does overnight. But what I’m getting at is, I think I may get off the soda. This thirsty feeling right after I’ve taken a drink is getting really annoying, and I’ve felt better all day with just the water I’ve been drinking. I definitely got my 64 oz. today.

Anyway, the first two weeks are over, and I did well. I’m looking to do just as good, if not better, for the second two weeks!

Trying to Re-group

I’ve been on weight watchers for a week and a half now, and I feel like I haven’t accomplished much. I haven’t weighed myself at all, but I haven’t been keeping track of my points very well either. After the first week I have kind of let things slide, not writing anything down and thinking “Oh, well, I can get away with eating this, it isn’t that many points…” But all of those points add up, and I’m worried that on Wednesday when I weigh in, it won’t be all that great. I also haven’t been exercising, something that I hope to correct starting this week. I know that in order to change my shape and get my body looking the way I want it to, I HAVE to work out. There really isn’t any other way to do it. I can diet all day long, but if I don’t exercise, I’m not going to end up with the body that I want. So this week is a re-grouping for me, a time to get myself back in gear and keep track of things better. I am also going to look into joining weight watchers online and see if I can afford it, and if it will help me as far as keeping track of things. I know that it will, but the question is whether or not I can afford to do it. It may be one of those things that I am just going to have to make a priority, because the status quo of this past week is not going to get anything accomplished. Something has to happen.

Beginning Again…

Last Thursday, I started Weight Watchers, which I had posted earlier that I was going to do. It has been going GREAT so far! I have been able to control my hunger very well, and I haven’t had any desire to cheat. Last night we went out to a Japanese steakhouse and I did extremely well, keeping track of my points and I didn’t go over my points at all. I am very proud of myself so far. If anyone hasn’t noticed, I haven’t posted anything about exercising lately. I burnt myself out pretty quick with that goal of exercising every day. Now I’m going to take it a little slower and try not to burn myself out. I want to accomplish my goals, and if I burn myself out, that won’t accomplish anything.

Another plus is that, because the daycare I work at is part of a program that emphasizes nutrition for kids, a nurse from the health department comes to the daycare once every two weeks and will weigh and take the blood pressure of the teachers. This, I guess, is supposed to be an incentive to get the teachers excited about the program for the kids. They’ve been doing this for a while, but I just found out about it last Wednesday. I think that it has helped my frame of mine as far as working hard to make sure that I stay within my points range. I haven’t started exercising again, but I am going to do that really soon. Hopefully I will be able to get up early tomorrow and do some exercising.

Also, my boyfriend is having issues with his blood sugar. We are not sure what the issues are yet, but hopefully it is nothing is too wrong. We are wondering if his meter is working right, but while we are wondering all of this, I am hoping that he listens to his body and uses this as a wake up call that he needs to take better care of himself.