Letting Go of the Pity Party

So I was thinking about my last post – I have been thinking about it since I wrote it – and it hit me all of the sudden: “Geez! You are being so WHINY!” I mean, I have been doing this diet since September, fully planning on making it a permanent part of my life. I was going to the gym regularly – I’m not sure why I stopped. I’ve lost almost forty pounds and have had a level of commitment that I’m not sure I’ve ever had before… and all I can do is whine about my upcoming vacation?!

Really, after I thought about it, I was really mad at myself. I mean, how can I talk like that after everything I have done to be successful? Am I really going to let a weekend trip bend me out of shape that much? The answer, of course, is

NO

So today I decided to stop the pity party. That really was what it was; I haven’t lost any weight in a couple of months and I haven’t really taken the time to figure out why. I have probably done what many others have done throughout the winter and let some things slide that I normally wouldn’t have. I think that my focus needs to change from pity-party central to trying to clean up my diet. I have thought about doing a Whole 30, but I think I can clean up my act pretty well without that. I went shopping today after browsing Chowstalker.com, so I have food for the week.

I also found Everyday Paleo  Lifestyle and Fitness. I have a feeling that this site is going to be my saving grace. I think that the whole Crossfit debacle was a total downer for me (probably part of my mental problem), but this site lists workouts that seem very similar to Crossfit workouts, but they have a beginner’s level! Meaning that I can work my way up the the intense Crossfit stuff. They even have tests for you to do in the beginner level so that you can tell whether or not you are ready to go on the the next level. I am very excited about starting that this week, as well as cleaning up my eating.

So tonight I made Stuffed Peppers and they are awesome (I say they are awesome because I am eating them right now). Tomorrow I am going to be working on 5-Spice Slow-Cooker Pork Ribs (although I went to EarthFare with the express purpose of buying some coconut aminos, but walked out of the store with a lot of other stuff – and no coconut aminos). My biggest problem is finding stuff to munch on, since I seem to be hungry a lot lately, but I will figure that out, too. I am going to clean it up and pay attention to my body, and hopefully soon I will have a very positive update on weight loss or a pant size lost or something like that! At the very least I can talk about how much better I feel.

The Rough Week

This past week was ROUGH! I’m not sure if it was after-affects of my body’s sugar tantrum, or if my body was just getting used to my new lifestyle, but I was so amazingly tired all week long. I had to drag myself – sometimes kicking and screaming – through the entire week. Whenever I am tired I crave carbs, so when I smelled anything like bread or sugar, I wanted it – but I didn’t give in.

And it was worth it, too! All day on Friday I could think of nothing but going to bed extremely early and sleeping for at least ten hours! But then, around four o’clock, something happened. I got my energy back. It happened slowly – I felt myself gradually being able to handle more and more activity – until I was a fireball by the time I got home. I was able to handle my daughters, whereas before I felt totally overwhelmed. I was able to do things around the house and homework and dinner, and all kinds of stuff.

The energy has carried over to today, which translated to packing the entire family up in the van and heading to the farmer’s market. It was very windy, overcast, and drippy when we got there, but we trudged through and I got to show my youngest some herbs and vegetables. She was more interested in the flowers, but as the weather improved slightly while we were there, both girls became a little more lively and seemed to take an interest in what was going on. It was a good first experience, and I look forward to taking them back frequently. I also found a vendor who was selling herbs to plant, which is good to know since I want to start my own herb garden.

We came back with an entire refrigerator worth of vegetables, and I think my fiance has doubts as to whether or not we will cook them all this week. After assuring him that we will, I’d better make sure that we do! I got a great head start this evening, when he grilled up two rib eyes and I sauteed up a whole skillet full of vegetables. We both agreed that it was a fine meal, and it was a wonderful way to end this rough week.